Do you ever think about/see something that makes you feel terrible, but in an unexplainable way? Like not angry, but not exactly sad, but also maybe a little in between? At the same time though, it’s almost like it breaks my heart and it makes me worry. Idk. And that’s how I feel about thinspo/pro-ana type blogs. Like I can’t be angry at them for having eating disorders but I am angry for them “inspiring” others not to eat. But at the same time I struggle not to stare at thinspo and cry for hours (like I used to). Its like I feel guilty for being able to be confident in myself nowadays, when I know so many people struggle with that daily. I guess thinspo just brings back bad memories, and I guess deep down I still wish I could look like those girls…but at the same time I just wish I could help all of these people and I feel so helpless not being able to do anything about it. I just have all kinds of negative feelings about thinspo/pro-ana blogs. And I worry. I worry a lot.